my skin feels jittery

it may be all the coffee i've had today, but my skin feels jittery, like it could squiggle off my bones. it's summer and i'm excited to work on the yard so my room mate has a surprise to come back to after vacation. i don't want to continue to sit inside at work. my stomach tried to leap out my throat early and my heart began to race only minutes after i arrived at the office. why am i such a dork that i fall instantly smitten with any girl i find attractive in 10 feet of me, but can't get out a single word. now all i want to do at work is order sandwiches to be delivered since she's a delivery driver. similar to the time the fed ex delivery guy was training a new driver, and i showed up before the pick up or deliveries to see if she ever came back, i went through a whole summer like that, she never did.
this morning, it took a few hours to go by for my stomach to settle and for me to grow hungry enough to eat my sandwich sample and by then i was talking to my room mate via messages as she waits for her plane about all she's missed in the last week and then instead of my stomach flying out of my mouth it was trying to stink and hide into my lower intestines, while also my chest is trying to jump out like a scene for that alien movie. i feel pulled in thirty different directions. i exchanged number with someone i could not remember the next day, and with a 47 year old lesbian. nothing against her but me... i'm a kid, i have no idea what i'm doing with life and that just sounds like a bad idea for everyone involved.