zombie pin-ups

ZOMBIE

pin-ups

a coloring book.

by kendall the clowndoll

i have 11 new drawings so far for a new coloring book! i'm rather excited. sexy pin-up zombies? so much fun drawing these. i've been drawing till my hand nearly falls off the last two days. i'm also excited i can use the big plotter printer for a full bleed cover this time. the coloring book will be in my etsy shop soon along with my other coloring books, great for christmas presents!

sketch book

clowning around.

when i grow up i want to be a 9 foot tall fire breathing clown.

quick snap shots before and after my performance last night. left is full costume on just before putting on the mask. i came out in full costume, then stripped, and transitioned to the photo on the right. pulled up the long pants to create a bloomer look showing my striped and fishnet tights. once shirt was off i unwrapped a piece of lace holding up my skirt and it dropped down. i had another flat satin clown collar i also ripped off, and pulled off my long gloves, tossed one and tucked the other in someone's shirt with a little dance. i also had a plastic pumpkin full of glow sticks i threw out to the audience, and three balloons.

for having a head cold i think it went rather well. good thing i requested to go on early, i was 4th up, and the 5th actually was planning on using my same song. i only had the one song and act planned, luckily she was able to quickly change since she was dancing, i apologized, but still felt rather lucky i was up first. i went home early where i settled down with a box of tissues.

i love clowns, creepier the better. the fallowing three images are of me at various times. fist is my halloween costume in 2008, the first time i ever dressed up as something not "pretty" it was a blast. a man at the bar was convinced i was the devil himself (he was deffinetly on some drug and kept crouching near me hiding & staring). 2nd i'm holding a ceramic clown doll, i actually have a collection of porcelain pierrot clown dolls, but they are currently in storage somewhere at my parents. i hope to dig them out soon, and have a place to display them at my new home. the last photo is one of the first times i played around with clown make up.

shabby, black and baroque

I picked up this house beautiful magazine that featured this beautiful 390 square foot 1 bedroom on its cover. a great use of space with storage furniture and look there's color! lots and lots of purple! so inspiring, i look at this article almost nightly when i'm thinking of the place i'm getting.



prodomenetly a bright color, with lots of contrasting black furniture, this is a great example of what i like. even my art is primarily black, white and one bright color similar to a color palette like this. i hope to turn my condo into a space that has the same feel as my art, like walking into one of my paintings.



luxuriouse purple with elegant mirror accents. i have two mirror furniture pieces ready to go! plus other small mirror i plan to paint black and hand along the far wall from the windows allowing light to brighten up the basement condo. the purple walls, and mostly white kitchen also allows a lot of light in with out being boring by adding shabby chic touches. i love shabby chic, i just prefer it to be painted black.

paint it black!

i'm stuck day dreaming of all the sweet things i can put in my first place till closing next month. i have no idea what it will feel like once i get those keys and it's all mine, but i can't wait.
how about this re-upholstered beauty from jayson home & garden? it's only 3 grand out of my budget for a sofa but great inspiration. i have some great baroque style mirrors and accents i plan to paint black for that frilly look.

i'm not sure where i grabbed this image, but i really want to paint my cabinets in my tiny kitchen and replace the counter top. if i painted them bright it would balance out the white appliances that come with the place.

i also really like these manufactured stone counter tops.
however, if i painted the cabinets bright i'd do a black counter top but if i paint the cabinets white to blend with the appliances it will be all about that bright green counter top! or bright green counter top and paint the cabinets the same purple as i plan for the wall. oh so may ideas, i really don't know what to do with it yet.






these images came from meg matthews' "old bedroom", found them in a search but they are amazing! my condo has a claw foot tub in the all white bathroom right now. there's also wainscoting to about mid way up the wall, so with some paint it will go goth chic in no time with just a few accents.

i'm just so excited. i get to pick paint, colors, decorate, and stay that way. i can invest in decorating because i won't just be moving in a year to the next rental.

inspection? check

today was the inspection for the condo i am buying. nothing unexpected came out so it's still a go for closing. some work needs to be done, then a whole lot of cosmetic work, i'm still terribly nervous but once i have the keys in my hand and paint on a brush i will know it's mine and it will feel more like a home. it's going to take a lot of paint... maybe that is an understatement. some caulking, sealing, and before that lots of stripping. tearing up the old carpet and replacing it. tearing out the countertop, that's just cause i don't like it, and replacing that with something less ceramic tile and more alternative and solid instead.

my bedroom is pretty much a hobbit hole, through a pint sized door in the living room, or a skinny door from the bathroom and then a yard long tunnel from either door. one small window that's under the deck will allow little light, and a whole lot of easy sleeping. one more door from the bedroom leads to an extra room with no closet, this will be my art studio hidden in the back away from everything else. a private little room for a creative mess. i think i'll cork the entire back wall and have the electrician run new outlets to the room.

in my little hole of a home i'll be farther from down town, living a lone which is a big draw back socially. i may be out of down town, and a bit further from friends but hopefully my place will be more comfortable and worth visiting. it's almost on sloan lake, perfect for walking my dog. i also get the tiny outdoor space i wanted. it is exactly what i was looking for, a one bedroom with a bonus room and just a little outdoor space enough to sit and read outside, and to have some sort of character about it. this converted speak easy mansion where they brewed boot leg gin in the basement suits me just fine.

that's pretty much everything that is on my mind right now. i keep having this worn out exhausted feeling. a feeling that i just want to go home so i can sleep, i don't feel i've been able to sleep in i don't know how long. i do not like sleeping at my parents' house, my chooses style over comfort when it comes to furniture, and my bed is at my apartment, but it just doesn't have a comfortable feeling here, and the giant cracks in the walls, my toilet hasn't worked right in months, and the back stairs falling off, it just doesn't feel like home.

i'm just so excited to be getting this place that i can fix up and make my own, for my own comfort. i feel i need to pull back to myself, focus on what i like to do, and re-build myself from there. right now i'm skimming along the surface, about to sink at any moment, but i just keep moving along down stream, no real direction, not sure really what to do. maybe this whole buying a home thing will help, and maybe it's just another idea i focus on till i reach it and find out it wasn't the answer. however it ends up being at least i'll have a place to start. an investment, it's moving forward, to where? no idea.

what to do?

so the bank has pretty much accepted my offer on a condo... only problem the hoa is hesitant to let me have my dog with out the ability to take that privlege away which i do not like since i would own my own unit. my dog has never been a problem before but it takes one person to complain three times just cause they feel like it for me to lose my dog? well, it's a deal, it's a good location, i could afford to fix it up... i'm just still worried. oh man.

run away freight car

that's it. i'm worn down and worn out. i want to buy a house, a condo a town home, my home, my space, my money, my loan, my decision. my mother, i love her and yes i respect and value her opinion but each time she has been invited to look at houses with my realtor and i it turns to a nightmare. this is just some fun time for me, i don't have the excess time to keep looking and looking, and i'm poor i'm not going to afford the best neighborhood and i'm okay with that, but my mom has hated everything i've looked at. i can see potential anywhere and yes i will probably go off the handle with my dreams and forget about the investment part, so yes that is where i value my mother's opinion and reasoning. right now, however, she will no longer be invited on initial visits, if i think i've found something i want to put an offer on, then i will take her to look at it. the dream right now has been snuffed out, i'm just worn out, tired of looking and wow can that woman give me a head ache.

tomorrow i'm looking at a few more properties, i'm hoping it being just me and my realtor will bring back a little excitement. this should be exciting, i'm 24 buying my first little home. i'm just pooped. i work full time, i haven't been very social because all my free time has been spent house hunting and so far it's all been a bust. how are there so many options out there but each time i think it could be the one i step inside and the smell almost kills me or the walls are collapsing in. oh well, tomorrow is a new day.